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Women judging other women… Just sad to me!!

May 29th, 2016 by phoenixmarie

Sometimes it’s really good to look at where you came from. Women love to judge others instead of helping?! When I’m in the gym I do my best to show others how to use a machine, tell them they’re beautiful, and answer questions (to the best of my knowledge) Because yes I was 205lbs at one point (depression equals food for me!) and we make our own decision to be where we are in life everyday… Picture was 13yrs ago… Yes clearly my ass is real

Stop judging and encourage each other… Men do it too… Supporting another person in reaching a goal is an amazing feeling…


Amber Rayne – Phoenix Version

April 4th, 2016 by phoenixmarie

I am writing this because a close girlfriend of mine asked me, “But like, Who was She(Amber)?!” I find it really sad that never watched a porn scene I can tell who every pornstar past or present that impacted the industry and why?! Amber did just that!!!

We all have those people we look up to when we get into porn… It’s no secret I idealized Tory Lane… Not from from ever watching her scenes; but from a day on set with her when I was Brand New. I also met a few other girls at the start of me becoming “Phoenix Marie” which was Amber Rayne.

Amber was to me A Legend. I do not care if anyone else saw her that way because I Did!! I’m an Anal Girl thru and thru and in my book You’ve NEVER Done ANAL until you’ve worked for JaySin EvilAngel!! No disrespect to my other Anal Directors!! He will push you further than anyone else and was doing it before it became a thing to do!! So when you realize that your Director Hero ALWAYS shoots someone you take notice!! Amber was always Smiling, Laughing, Loved Sex, & Eager to Please… Her Anal Skills were beyond question… She mastered doing the Splits, backbend, yoga, and extreme poses before they were ever a novelty trick “stars” today try to accredit to themselves.

She never asked for the attention she very deserved from others… She always was considered “one of the dirty girls”… We don’t get the AVN Performer of the year awards, or XBiz, or whatever else bought awards are currently being presented that month… but what we do get is All That Matters: the Respect & Admiration from the Fans and the Directors who are looking for a Go-To girl that will always give you their A-Game!! She would never complain about the male talent or female… If they loved sex, she loved them…

The best sex story I ever heard was about a scene she shot with two other Legends Nicki Hunter & Kylie Ireland for JaySin’s “Deep Anal Abyss #3” I don’t want to give it away because other than being JaySin and perhaps MimeFreak watching it Live …Buying or Renting it is the next best thing!!

I feel like there needs to be a know who came before you “Princess” class taught before you get the use the “Pornstar” title… With the Instagrams, Twitters, Snapchats… Too many “InstaStars” these days who didn’t Earn Shit, but look pretty… So like, give me stuff…

Saddens me because Legends like Amber Rayne, Kylie Ireland, Nicki Hunter, Francesca Le, Adrianna Nicole, Harmony Rose never truly get the attention they deserved!! There’s others, but I just want everyone to go watch a scene or a BTS clip of Amber especially anything at JaySin Or any other company and know she was a Great Person and such a giver to her fans and friends…

Also know she was a diehard Sharks fan, Anime artist, singer, comedian, and well known equestrian (horses scare me!) with a huge heart


Kinky things

June 20th, 2015 by phoenixmarie

I recently posted a picture of me crying during a SexandSubmission.com scene which actually enraged a few of my Fans to the point they were writing their opinions (negative more than positive) in the comment section… Soo I figure let us PSA this for all to read!!

-I have NEVER Done ANYTHING I Did Not Want To DO!!

-Bondage Scenes do NOT pay More!

-I am in Complete Control of where I am, who is inside me, and what they are doing to me!
(The joke I say is “Remember, at some point they are going to untie me… Tread accordingly”)

-I CAN Say RED at Any point in time and I will be untied and given another option if I really need to! Plus if it’s too much altogether I’ve seen them wrap scenes short (Myself with a device bondage shoot- Wasn’t feeling it No fault to Matt (I love him!) I was having an Off Day)

-I do pornography to work with Trained Professionals in EVERY Area of our industry

-I get to Experience NEW Things with every new scene and I’m vulnerable & bold enough to share those moments for my Amazing Fans

-To label Bondage as degrading, is unfair to an entire part of society who is comfortable & secure enough to live this lifestyle.

-I don’t Fake Anything in my scenes… I don’t always climax, but the sex will feel fucking great… It’s how it works! I have cried in regular porno scenes as well as bondage

-There’s a HUGE difference between Phoenix Marie and ME in my day to day life

-I have been Electrocuted, Drowned, Flogged, Fisted, and Set on Fire… (Fisted Anally Only) Those are not things I trust a rookie to try on me… For that I’m grateful to companies like Kink.com for allowing me and others this amazing safe environment to Play In

-Going to Kink on & off for the last almost 8 years I have NEVER been on a more welcoming set where truly all people are treated as equals – Straight, Gay, Lesbian, Transgender (It is NOT like that sadly in other areas of pornography)

-I Love Myself! I have NEVER tried a drug, I’m a lightweight with alcohol, and I am a Happy, Giving person to all I know… I hate seeing it as a person being “self inflicting” pain by being a submissive.

-I am a True Switch… I will Submit to those I TRUST & Respect …As well when I am a dominate I will never take my submissive to a point they are not comfortable with… We Play!! Test boundaries, try new experiences, and welcome those challenges…

-I’ve learned a lot about myself sexually by going to kink

-Please understand it’s an Art Form and a Lifestyle to MANY and judging another person is Wrong

No one has to Accept and Welcome anything they don’t wish to see… But to voice mean or harsh comments because it’s not “for you” isn’t okay. To refer to a Porn Girl as a piece of meat, lower than ones self is Laughable.

Sweaty Random Gym Thoughts

January 28th, 2015 by phoenixmarie

As I sit here in the sauna …Sweaty, pre working out, I look out the glass at the women walking by and sitting next to me.

Some perfect shape, tone, well-balanced diet types who take fitness to a competition level (they also have probably been to Ageless Forever here in Vegas and seen Dr. Pierce, Fear not I will never tell)…

And then there are the real women who are much like I use to be.. Shy, Coy, With insecurities, towels wrapped tight to their curves, almost for fear of judgement from another woman.


I just shared a smile with a full figured gorgeous Latina woman who is wearing a traditional bathing suit and happened upon an open spot in the sauna across from me…

Little to her knowledge, I have been watching all of her movements since she walked in from the pool area, she placed her items near the showering area and made a brief appearance in the steam room, before ending up in here…

She originally had a towel as well… When she bent over reaching into her gym bag, placing down her phone and rummaging through it only to grab out some sort of moisturizer… her strap dropped off her shoulder exposing the right side of her breast and nipple to me.

She was actually very quick to cover herself back up and then look around the room. Embarrassed perhaps? For the life of me I would not be able to tell you why… She locked eyes with me who clearly was the only one stalking her like a lioness would its fragile deer… I shared that same safe playful smile then, Fortunately, it was returned.

More people are leaving the sauna now sadly, but it allows me to move into a spot with a full view… where I can more easily access and examine the behaviors of others.

Like the dancer who came in looking as though last night was successful and she so decided to throw on some gym clothes to make another go around. Clearly if you are at the gym in Full Makeup you are looking to get Fucked or Find a Sugar Daddy?!

I am guilty of attending the gym three times with full Phoenix makeup and hair… It’s not advised!

Back the that question… Why do women judge other women?!

I do a fair amount of girl girl scenes and personally I prefer to showcase the other woman before myself… I love all body types! Look at my IG: PhxMarie I was once 205lbs ALL Booty and Thigh meat!! Weary cat face I like most was called cruel names by other women like Cheeto thighs (cheesyPouting faceFisted hand sign) but it took me to decide for me to go workout and cut all sodas and flavored drinks from my diet!! My decision to do what I tell Everyone to do including my very own italian mother… 100 sit ups a day (doesn’t have to be all at once) followed by a brisk walk for 30 mins (1mile) it helped her lose 80lbs!! I’m an amazing daughter I know!! *Smart Ass*

Do we think by exploiting another’s imperfections it will better ourselves?! I get so angry when I hear some fit chick talk a about an obese woman at the gym! It’s like, “You clearly have never struggled in your life then or you wouldn’t make those comments Bitch!! She’s at the fucking gym trying to better herself so shut the fuck up or I’ll assist you in making you feel some pain!!” (By that I mean Anal Fisting!)

Maybe I should do a blog a day about the women I see at the gym?!

Cardio, Legs Curls, Light Arms… Oh Joy…

Sometimes I think about writing novels…

May 4th, 2014 by phoenixmarie

It started just as any other day would, and I assume every other person in the world’s does… I wake up! I awake by the slamming of a door, a loud alert (ie. Car alarm, horn honking, the high school marching band practicing -yes even on a Saturday morning) or the more than occasional argument between the newly weds in the apartment beneath me over her insecurities about the “Short, Shorts wearing Hoochie” …did I mention yet that I wear Short, shorts… Yeah, I know, it’s great…
I normally have the luxury to stay in bed the first part of my morning handling business… Seeing as my job is mainly “online”
I reach for one of my phones (In total including the ones I have for my family I have 7- 2 are mine- one personal, and now one the gets random cock pictures thanks to a fan posting it on a forum… I would get rid of that number, but I’ve had it since high school and random friends will text me so I can’t!) I also have the iPads (mini or traditional) and of course my laptop! 
“Where should I go first?” as I choose to unlock my personal phone… Part 1 of my day and many others in my career field is -Social Media- “What app did I update last?” Before my brain finally turned mush and I past out… Twitter? Instagram? Facebook (which is strictly for family and friends)… Or do I dare address some of these texts…
I currently am showing 37 unread… Why you ask?! Is it because I was super popular at a social gala last night? Probably not… More than likely like most it’s 37 replies or requests to go out (friend or date) or replies from an Ex you haven’t text in months, but they still feel that need to get a reaction from you even if it’s negative!! 
It’s not fair to throw that out there because whether we all admit it or not -Social Media Time- somehow can become Lurking time… Starts for instance with a retweet from a friend of that one person (this can be BF/GF/Friend-imes/Ex/CurrentCrushWhoYoureDyingToTalkTo) so you read it… Clicking it of course to make it bigger (you don’t need glasses why did you click it…) oh, oh look a new avatar… Depending on the person you either talk shit or swoon! Then you click on their profile… See who commented… What they commented… Two hours later you realize you haven’t even checked your update and actually should be something less than a hermit!!! 
I finally get my head on straight, check my update… Send witty replies where I can and want… Add new update to ALL or some of the apps… Send love and likes to all those I really keep in my very small circle… 
I HATE DRAMA!! Like hate it… I have an extremely normal world outside of my career… (Family, Friends, Gym, CoffeeBean) 
I also love making people smile even at my own expense… Why would I do that you ask… Karma of course! I always say -Thank You- followed by Gorgeous, Beautiful, Sexy… It really can change someone’s whole day by giving a compliment… “You have an amazing smile.. Haircut.. Gym shoes…” The Little Things!! 
Now from here I guess I didn’t elaborate on the my career is “Online” as you can tell I had no problem wasting two hours on my phone getting me officially out of bed and into the shower at 10/11am… 

He could be anybody… To anyone…

February 16th, 2014 by phoenixmarie

Fair Warning… This is not a Super Happy post-

I went to the Chiropractor today, Too many booty pixs twists the spine and neck causing major pain and will ruin a good night’s sleep!! Leaving, feeling soo much better, I began walking to my car, and since this neighborhood is less than desire-able, I was scanning the parking lot for anything/one to be alert for when I saw a homeless man. He sat in a decrepit wheelchair by a trashcan. He was old, weathered skin, long peppered unwashed hair, the sores on his body being made ever apparent by his barely there rags for clothes atop his diminishing body…

I got into my car and I just sat there, watching him. He would just stare at the trash can, scratch at his sores, and continually fall in & out of sleep. I noticed he had no shoes on his feet, the bottoms looked blackened and calloused. I thought to myself as tears started to stream down my cheeks: This is someone’s son, father, brother, uncle, and here he is left, in the elements with nothing…

Now I know there are some of you who would begin to say; well he is where he is because he put himself there some way?.. I did notice two empty beer cans beside him and smashed cigarette box… But is he not a human, a man. I couldn’t take it: I got out of my car and crossed the street to the goodwill store(I’m one of ten kids, I know my way around a thrift store) went to shoes: grabbed a pair of size 13 boots, socks, & an XL brown jacket total cost $32.58 (I spend more than that on coffee bean a week)

Now that I had these items I had to go over to him and give them… I am currently with a limp and a female… I was a little scared…

As I made my way over, I was startled, there was another gentleman with him I didn’t see, sat behind the trash can near the fencing in a very similar state of being, but more alert and lit a cigarette when he saw me (yep, little scary) – I smiled at him (probably a very nervous looking smile) I apologized for not having items for him, and gave him the only cash I had ($7.00) and laid the garments on the gentleman’s lap in the wheelchair who was still asleep. The alert man thanked me and kept saying, “Wow, you have a beautiful smile”

I got back into my car and cried a little more, why?! Was it for this man I do not know… or Maybe just for the fact that I realize that I am Truly soo blessed to have even the bare essentials in life: such as running water, food, family, and friends…

I’m a very giving person to those I care about… I go out of my way to make them smile… I’m more of a Giver than a receiver (okay maybe not sexually pervs) but it is my way… I’m not asking anyone to do anything, but maybe even share a Smile with someone who maybe hasn’t seen one in a while…

Little things count to someone with nothing…

Pixs than mean something to me…

September 8th, 2013 by phoenixmarie

I realize I have a ton of photos and thought… Hell lets share some!! Enjoy…

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Safe Sex is Great Sex!!!

September 7th, 2013 by phoenixmarie

To continue the song – “Better wear a Latex” works for most… Unless you are like Myself allergic to Latex!! (thanks Mom for the allergy) Oh, but condom companies offer Skyn, Lamb, & other resources luckily for your protection. Protection… From sexually transmitted diseases, of course… But wait… According to the FDA.gov anything other than Latex Condoms Do NOT Protect against diseases, but Only Pregancy!?! Plus, they Do NOT Test them Anally for approval against STDs stating, “Condoms provide some protection, but anal intercouse is simply too dangerous to practice” (well thank you surgeon general) …BUT… I get tested every 14 days… Which is really far more than the average citizen in the United States of America, as well as, the Entire Planet!!!

Sex is something we all do… No matter the gender or the preference we are ALL Carnal in desires of the flesh. How we go about practicing this fulfillment is where we vary. If you’re lucky enough to be in a monogamous relationship with your partner I still believe in once a year testing… At Least!! And if you are looking at beginning a New Sexual relationship you should Both be tested so you know going into it where you stand. Is testing expensive, does it take a long time… I don’t know compare that to the price you’ll pay if you Do Contract a disease… Fortunately even our worse STD which is HIV+ to AIDs is no longer a death sentence!! (It will require you to get a non-porn “real” job though). Thankfully there are resources with free testing & medication options to control the virus from destroying and killing your body!! (Google it people)

Why bring up this subject?! Well recently the Porn Industry has been experiencing a high amount of STDs including positives for HIV. (Which when a positive is confirmed we require All Studios to cease production until all performers have been retested and cleared) AGAIN we test as regularly as 14 days so we can contain any spread of diseases to other performers, as well as, significant others we may have at home. The Government, State Departments, and I wish to believe meaning well others think that Condoms are the Save ALL… Again go back to my first paragraph… You’re NOT very bright (uneducated using assumptions ) or you’re just looking to try and stop porn from being produced?! Produced where? Here in the states? Because I don’t know if you realize Porn is Worldwide, not just California or Miami… If you see pornography as Obscene, you have Every Right to feel that way, BUT I don’t attack you with False Information or Lack of knowing you’re day to day actions. We Are ALL Sinners!! No One is Perfect!!

Who am I to talk about anything?! Am I Perfect… Fuck NO!!! I can say I’ve Never Done a single Illegal Drug, Not because I’m better than Anyone, But because I saw the damage it had done to a family member and swore to never even try it. The last Off-Camera relationship I had with someone I made sure he was tested and shared my same information. Why? Because I respect Myself, as well as, the performers I work with everyday!!

I am also going to vent on something that is Very Close to me… Hatred and/or Ignorance! When we get something as scary as HIV+ results my follow performers begin to almost bash and belittle others performers publicly and privately who are openly bi-sexual and tested… Saying hurtful rude things that are just Mean- STOP!!! Especially on Public forums like Twitter… I know how upsetting it is… especially when you lose work do to it… but please bite your fucking tongue!!! By the way for some of you Newer Performers who come to set and talk all this smack out of “disgust” that a male/female performer would like TGirls or same sex “On-camera” but you’re working with a guy/girl who has done it “On-camera” and you didn’t know or just “Off-camera” how Big of an Ass do you look?!

I’ve been in this industry almost 6 years… October 15, 2013 will be the day actually… I can say I’ve never judged anyone on sexual preferences, I may have said something didn’t arouse me… Or even wasn’t for me… But to throw a stone is Childish!! Especially when you suck the same dick as everyone else has… Porn is a family… We are only as good as our weakest link… We are Very forgiving and accepting because we are a bunch of Misfits, Sex Addicts, Some Smokers, Drinkers, even our Partiers but they are Ours!!! Do a better job of protecting it, Please! Most of our society is looking for ways to belittle us… Lets not give them an open invite!!!

Love For ALL

Soo the Big 3-1… I’m NOT Ready!!

September 13th, 2012 by phoenixmarie

Well it’s that time again… My Birthday, and I’ll be damned if that fucker didn’t land back on the same day the 21st of September!!

Last year was the 30 year mark and as the song: “My next 30 years” by Tim McGraw, was slowly playing in my mind; it didn’t push me to do anything different…

Oh wait… I did travel a little bit more, decided 9 years time to upgrade my boobs for Christmas, then went Raven Black on my hair color, lost 25lbs of fat and toned up, got married… LOL on the Married part we ALL know I’m SOO NOT Married!!! You have to NOT Hermit to run into Mr. Right!! But in my “Man Cave” I have a 3d TV, NFL Ticket, PS3, and Wifi… I go to work, the gym, and home… I am soo LAME!!!

Not exactly the crazy sexy times you imagine from this 1-drink drunk!! But FACT!! Cheapest date ever!! Well I am a “Foodie” so I guess I can’t say that huh?! Though I’m sure this year I’ll be eating dinner at Flemings or Benihana because I’m all classy like LOL

Which leads me to what the fuck am I going to do this year?! Well I don’t throw Porn Parties (sorry but no one buys gifts, some pay covers, and most FLAKE) I am Lucky enough to know my family, friends, and fans have my back everyday!! This year my Amazing Friend “Sloane” the lead singer of “Feral Vinca” is throwing me a get together at the “Lava Lounge” in Thousand Oaks, CA *Open Invite* more the merrier!!

I will hopefully get to go SCUBA Diving in the Morning at Catalina Island why because I’m a Certified Fish!! Lol Yes ever since the Bahamas with Penthouse I’ve been hooked…. *corny joke, bite me*

What else… Simple~ then Sleepy Time *One can hope for Birthday Sex but my record of 1-5 it isn’t looking to good* I thought Porn made it a 100% solid you’ll have sex… Wrong!! and with the 5 year mark of me being “Phoenix Marie” coming this October 15th I’m pretty sure I know if it’s going to happen LOL

And to be Forthcoming; I feel out of sorts with the whole- I’m going to be 31… I take amazing care of my body, No drugs, One drink drunk, workout, and I have an Annual Passport to Disneyland… so I don’t feel like I’m anywhere near 31… I find myself more regularly pondering: Shouldn’t I already be Married, 2 kids, House with a Prius in the driveway?! I know I’m the “Hardcore Anal Queen” but seriously I am the Loyal to a Fault, Love Making, Cuddler, who is also Sporty, Fun-Loving, steal your Dirtbike while you’re passed out from the night before Girl… I do have a Passion for SEX!! I Need IT!! I believe it plays a HUGE Role in a relationships Health!!! Grrrr… I guess compared to last year I expected to be somewhere else in my life… I want Cuddles so this is going to be it… Til Next Time!! Love you ALL!!


Oh The Fantasies…

September 9th, 2011 by phoenixmarie

Sooo I was asked to come up with a scene “My Fantasy”…

I thought Long & Hard… What is something I haven’t done ON Camera, With One Guy, That is not a “Redo” of something I’ve done before…

I have played Many Characters… Really kinda cool to think about it… BUT here in lies the Problem…

If I want Originality then the scene would be “Unscripted”

When we read Lines we change them to fit our own Monologue Traits at Times (Me All The Time!!) Lol

Myself, Wanting to Explore soo many concept ideas… To Challenge Everything… I Cant see acheiving it with just TWO Individuals – I think they ALL require what Jonni Darkko calls “A Neutral”

A Neutral can be ANY gender and they normally are not as “Advanced” as the other Performers in the scene and will allow the Same Intensity, but with a Flare of Innocence.. Almost…Or is the word Helplessness… That at times can be beneficial to ALL Parties… Shows Off the Strong… Brings out more from the “Neutral” that they were Opened up to…

So Frustrating- Now the Question, “What Creative idea for Role Playing do you think is NEW and Fun?!”

Email Me at – PhoenixMariexxx@yahoo.com

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