So I just got finished watching the movie called THE KNOWING….WTF! Nicholas Cage what the fuck were you thinking…you used to make some great fucking movies. Like THE ROCK, CONAIR, FACE OFF. Now your making movies like NEXT, that one motorcyle movie where you become a fire whatever you call it, now this… wow! It would have been good if it had not gotten all sci fi on us. The idea of the numbers and the girl predicting all the crazy disasters was cool until we got the aliens and all that other nonsense. I like a lot of movies but what a way to fuck it up. If they had made it so it was like a DAY AFTER TOMORROW or a DEEP IMPACT movie it would have made it a lot farther in my book. But this kind of reminded me of a I KNOW WHO KILLED ME Lindsey Lohan movie where it had a good beginning but then it gets too unbelievable. it almost seemed like these movies are just hurting for an ending so they create this off the wall ending. Sorry Nick but you are a great actor and right now its looking like your desperate for some sort of income. You have got to pick your movies more wisely and save your money.

As I have grown into an adult I have been slapped across the face with events in my life that forces me to wake the fuck up and appreciate the people you love and care about the most. The best way for me to appreciate these people first off is by picking up the phone and calling them. They usually think I am crazy because this special call comes out of no where. I tell them how much I love them. How much I value our relationship and how much I appreciate them for everything little thing they have done for me. Nothing ever too small. I acknowledge all the love and support they have given me and how priceless that is to me. They usually then ask me what’s wrong due to the fact that this isn’t a usual conversation a person has. Then to call only to have this conversation and not ask for money straight afterswards seems unsual too.

When I was 19 years old I experienced something I wish upon no one. My fiance had past away and I had not told him how much I loved them. My last memory of him was horrible and not one to have left embedded in your memory. But it happened this way and I have accepted that now after many years of guilt and emotions not one word could describe. As a result of this experience, I have realized that life is so precious and how important it is to keep the people you love most close to your heart and to share that with them. One day they will not be there for you to do so and when that day comes God forbid they don’t know exactly how you feel about them and how much they meant to you.

I have been taught in the most effective way known to man kind that there are so many things worse to fight about than the less important shit in life. Life can always be worse. When it does get worse that’s when love is suppose to help you keep it together and not fall apart. You get that love and support from your family. When I say family not just your biological family but the “family” you chose to have. This “family” will show you how important your are to them and how much your happiness means to them. Therefore, their support can and will pull you through anything.

The strange thing is now in my life the family I have chosen for me I can’t even call my family anymore. They turned thir backs on me. When I needed their strength they were no where to be found. When I needed their love they neglected me. When I cried for help they never lended me a hand. When things got worse I couldn’t live for them anymore. I have someone else now I love more than myself and she truly needs me. She will not be dragged into this cycle. She will know how important family is and I will lead by example…So I left…

When I thought that the family I chose was all I had and it was gone. I was wrong… True family found me. I didn’t have to choose anyone. They came to me and showed me love and support and took me in. They have helped me in ways I would never have imagined and effortlessly… All they did was love me and my daughter unconditionally. I know now how it feels to be treated like family. To be from different blood but treated as if we were of their own. Being chosen to be a part of true genuine unity. 1 unit…1 army fighting for each of us to get through this life with happiness….with love…getting through each battle to then finally win the war. I love my families…my blood and the ones that might as well have been my blood…

Thank you guys…you know who you are…I love you

This years Erotica LA was a success! Teagan and I had sooo much fun posing with all you fans out there who came out to see us. Lots of picture taking and signing DVDs and 8x10s and everything else in between. We had a blast! Here are some pics of our weekend! Teagan and I do look bomb next 2 either no doubt… gotta find some more pics of the weekend…. anyone got some feel free to send me a link or whatever…really want to find me some so if you have any erotica la pics let me know!!!

Teagan and I at The Fame Awards booth in between signings DAY 1

We are cold and trying to have a cig...so lets take a picture and snuggle

Waiting outside of Ralphs grocery store before we headed out to the convention...DAY 3

SEE! I need more pics!

The second weekend of May was…well…let’s just say CRAZY…why? Because it was EXXXOTICA: MIAMI BITCHES! I got to spend the whole weekend with my fellow porn friends and of course, my other partners in crime. My new partners of a bigger than life company we own called skinworXXX! Teagan Presley and Joshua! WAT! WAT!

Here are some pics of a very cool pool party we attended as a kick off celebration of the convention…

Teagan Presley and I at the beginning of the night...so hot!

Happy skinworXXX Family!

Gina Lynn and us chillin like a villain

My clothes are starting to come off as i become more and more like a fucking goof ball....can't help it!

looking sexy for you guys....grrrrr

this is before teagan decided to put me in a hold while two boys try to double barrel me... she succeeded... they didn't...

GOOD TIMES!!!

Look at the view at the top of the mountain

My fave girls! GO TEAM GO!

We all look so good together...Especially at 7 in the morning.. Chihuahua's need exercise size too!

Pretty bomb picture considering i took it myself...

We were all having such a great time this morning until we got half way down the mountain. My morning made a horrible turn for the worse when our stopped us and told us that Rhyse’s car got broken into. The first thing that ran through my mind was that my purse was hidden under the seat of the car. Put it this way…. I have never ran so fast before in my fucking life! I took off and never looked back. Any person who saw me would never have thought that I had been a smoker for 12 years. When I got to her car there was glass every where. I checked in the car and of course the worst had happened. They fucking took my purse with all my cash and wallet! Mother fuckers! I swear why do people have to victimize others so they don’t have to get a fucking job. Come on man! Kick me while I’m fucking down right? Well, I hope that cock sucker is happy with my brand new $3000 purse and all my personal information. The only good thing I still had was my phone with all my priceless pictures still on it! Anyway…I guess karma is a bitch and her and I are becoming great friends.

So I have taken up a new hobby thanks to my best friends on the planet Rhyse and Rhylee Richards. They have got me hooked on hiking! Not only has it become very theraputic for me but a great way to build some fucking sexy ass legs and butt! Yes! I am getting quite the awesome ass…The Chinese in me has surrendered! I love hiking! We go every morning bright and early…like…6am early which is fucking amazing to me considering I am a new, single mom and should be exhausted just by simply existing. But I am full of energy and absolutely adore bringing my daughter on our hikes too… Thank God for the kangaroo pouches… That’s when I reeeeally feel the burn of an added 15 lbs to my load…lol
We drink a little energy drink to get us started then load up Rhylee’s fanny pack with all of our goodies and go! I can’t believe how amazing it makes me feel for the rest of the day! Everyone should make the time to hike at a nearby trail. This morning we had the first person ballsy enough to actually show up to hike after volunteering himself the day before at our friends 4th of July BBQ. Tommy Gunn did not flake on us and proved not to be intimidated by the early hour. But the mountain sure did kick his ass… I guess the ultimate test will be if he shows up tomorrow for seconds…little does he know we are going to be hiking twice at 2 different locations…

So today i thought i was soo fucking smart… But not quite genius… a couple months back I had found an application on my G1 that would allow me to post on my blog whenever and where ever I wanted. Unfortunately, I had know idea what the fuck i was doing or how i was supposed to do it. I even asked my webmasters to figure it out for me and they looked at me like i was crazy. So i thought i was crazy too and gave up. But today was the day i found my sanity…well, most of it. I figured it out and even found a better version of this application for my cell. Only problem was that for some fucking reason i can’t post pictures from my cell onto a post. I get all the html posted instead and it’s all fucked up. The pics do upload to my media section of my admin but refuses to automatically show up in my post… i seriously spent HOURS trying to figure a solution without any luck…so in conclusion, i will update my blog without pictures until i get home and can attach them onto each individual post. sorry guys but i can honestly say i tried….reeeeeally hard!

Dude! So… so much DRAMA has happened in my life that has made it very difficult to focus on certain aspects of my life. But now that the water is settling I am refocusing my energy on the IMPORTANT things in my life. Besides the obvious, my site is my 2nd baby that I am watching grow up. I am truly so sorry of this enormous delay on updating my blog. I have a ton of pics from the past couple of months that I will be posting up on here. So if they are old pics….I’m sorry but at least the blog will be new!!!…lol…I’m lame. 

Thanks for being patient with me….

I love you alll!!!!

This was my first porno outing since the AVN Award Show in Vegas. I was totally excited to go because my friends Teagan and Josh were in town. Danny even missed his soccer game so he could come to the award show. I was presenting the Female Performer of the Year Award! This is the award I won last year so I was so excited about presenting that. I was also introducing a special project that was going on this summer in Jamaica at the very end of the show so it was really cool being included in the actual award show rather than just a spectator. 

       I really wanted to feel a little more confident that night because for obvious reasons I still have some baby fat packed on so I hired a makeup artist to do my hair and makeup and while she was at it she also did Teagan’s hair. We were running behind even before we got home to meet the makeup artist which was really bad news because we were supposed to be at the venue at 6pm…realistically…it wasn’t gonna happen…and it didn’t happen by a long shot. 

      Once we got our act together Danny drove us to the venue. Little did we know that the location I was told the award show was going to be held wasn’t actually it. I has asked Josh long before that day if it was going to be held at The Highlands Night Club. He told me it was actually at Level 3 Night Club a floor below The Highlands. So went drove there. Needless to say it was a ghost town at both clubs. By this time we are an hour and half late to rehearsals. Thank God it was only rehearsals. Once we found out where it was actually held we hoped back into the car and drove a couple of blocks to where we needed to be… Blvd. 3 Night Club….Oh Lord! We actually didn’t miss much except for freezing our asses off. We still did, don’t get my wrong but we just didn’t for as long as could have if we would have had any concept of having time management skills. 

    Long and behold they opened up the bar and XBiz treated us to an open bar until the award show started. Teagan and I hit the red carpet and sprinted to the bar for some Jager shots to warm us up. The best part of this night was that my amazing sister in law said she would take care of the baby for the night so I could let down my hair a have a little drink on. Danny had to work the next day so he wasn’t going to drink and drive. It was ON! We all had such a great time talking amongst our peers and long time friends we have not had time to see in a while. I made sure I took some pictures for you guys!

Teagan and i having a blast!

Monstar and I....just like the good ole days!

Jordan and I...Looks like I am wanting to rest my head on her tits...

Tommy, Sophia and I chilling...this is when the alcohol started kicking in

Alexis Texas is the shit! This is the first time we really got to hang out with her and I just fell in love...

Chris Johnson...it's freaky how much he looks like my ex...but not as nerdy

Danny and i...we actually didn't see much of each other through out the night...still got one pic

Craven and I...always chokes me out when I see him...thank god i like it

    I totally missed presenting my award…. When i found out I was so mad! I was so busy doing little quick interviews with my peers I never realized that my pager had not been working. Woops! Whatever…. Before I knew it the award show was over and it was time to reunite with my husband and go home to the little one…But not until we got some Jack in the Box! It was a great night and even tho I missed presenting my award I still had a blast socializing with friends i had not seen in a while.

By special request…(Jen) I am going to talk about my new tattoo. I got this tattoo for my daughter…Hence the name “Sylvi” on my wrist. I wanted something special for her and I wanted it somewhere where in the future I could add more of my children’s name to it. My husband thought it would have been better placed on the inside of my wrist but I have that spot saved for another meaningful tattoo I have been meaning to get. 

I got this tattoo in Venice Beach on Jan. the 12th just after her one month birthday. I had known I wanted something for her and normally I am very standoffish about getting names on my body but in this case I know Sylvi and I will never break up so I think this is truly the only exception to my rule. I knew exactly what i wanted. On my cell I brought up my website and showed the tattoo artist the hearts on my site and told him instead of little devil horns i wanted halos for my little angel. He drew up a couple versions of the hearts and had me choose the writing and there it was. the perfect tattoo for my perfect daughter. Here is a picture!

I love it! One day I might even get the hearts colored in for her.

Feel free to give me your opinion.

love ya guys!

Eva